Ok I don’t look quite as horrific as this but I had the choice of likeness or mood. I chose mood. This to be fair is very abstract and was done at speed the whole painting took just over an hour and is by no means accurate or brilliantly painted. However I got to this point and thought I would stop as it conveyed exactly what I wanted and I was worried I would loose the mental chaos and tiredness I was trying to show. I experimented with some backgrounds before I started and sketches but at the last minute decided to go all Guy Denning on myself.
So I coated the paper with my usual neutral beige and then placed sand on the background because I wanted to dry brush the darker tones into it. Where drawing the figure I rubbed away the sand leaving it smoother. I had after looking at painting the figure in colour decided to use a limited palette, I like the way Guy Denning displays mood with his very dark portraits and thought I would try and do similar.
There is a slight colour to the figure in the hair and the fleece, although I feel if I was to take this further I would put more colour within the picture. Not a huge amount but just a hint of colour and think more about the placement of my brush. This I feel is a starting point and needs a lot of work but I was spontaneous in my work and just went for it. Another first for me was the use of sandpaper. I didnt like the left side just above the shoulder so decided to have a go at sandpapering the area and it looked so much better. I will use this again in the future. I used mirror and photos for this portrait as it was too difficult to hold the pose and paint.
Colours used for this painting were Titanium White, Ivory Black, Burnt Sienna, Raw Sienna, Alizarin Crimson, Ultramarine Blue.
Below a few examples of work leading up to painting